Know Thyself

Because we’re in the payroll software provider company, we need to get the public holidays dates for 2009 to setup the calendar in the application. It support eight  countries, but only one makes us interested, Singapore’s of course. We’re happy to know that 2009 is good year for employees. In case you’ve already seen the 2009 calendar, do you notice about the long long weekends?

Anyway, today marks my 6 months of working. So far, it’s boring. It has taken away my sleeping time and some freedom of mine. It has made me become a less cheerful, more sleepy person. It’s also responsible for the dark areas under my very precious eyes. Why do I need to work? If you really want to know then I think you won’t mind to look for the answers in my previous entries because I myself cannot exactly locate when it was written, so just kindly help yourself.

Last but not least, I love when my boss is not around. He’s on leave till 20s. I feel some freedom in doing things I like. Once I become an employer, I hope I can still remember this kind of feeling. I won’t blame them. It is just to hard to go against the nature.

I woke up at almost 20.30 and suddenly remember I haven’t bought the sandals I need to buy and tomorrow is already Monday. For from Wednesday to Friday I borrowed different sandals, shoes from sisters, my collegues might have wondered I am maybe a shoes collecter. In fact, I have none. I like to collect bags, not shoes.

The weather is very hot and it is said, ‘when it’s hot, keep your head cold. when it’s cold, keep your heart warm.’ I took a quick bath. And when the hunger called, I realize I haven’t taken the dinner. What to take care of first now? If you know me well enough, you will know the answer.

While eating my chewy junior, I went to the first shop and got what I Iike! It’s too easy I said, I used to hunt for sandals for days even months. I asked for the smaller size and she said no more. Expected result, the answer was supposed to be like that. I went to two to three other shops, ended up with nothing in my hands.

So after that, I had my fav activity, sitting down nicely in a cafe, having my tea served, while watching people wandering around. It always gives me a peaceful feeling.

In the afternoon, I read what my sis wrote in the what-are-you-doing-now in the facebook, and she said she misses blogging. I opened her blog and reread all the entries and realized how I also missed her writings. Indeed, she is a good writer and a good entertainer. Do you know you can read people’s character by reading their blogs? A so lovely person I can say, she really is.

I used to answer when people ask me what I like to do, that I like eating and sleeping and reading while laying on the bed. I enjoy gossiping and watching people and playing cards and writings and listening to musics. But what do I love the most? Each of them has its period and once it’s over, I have another. Somehow, my watching people and writing hobbies have their expired dates much longer than others. I am able to create a story about someone’s life in my imagination just by looking at what he is currently doing. I like to translate into words what is inside my head.

I need to add a new thing I like to do, I enjoy looking up to the blue sky and the white cloud. The more beautiful it is at that moment, the more I know everything in my life is still ok. It gives that sense. Try it! And perhaps it is why I don’t like raining.

As I had some restless sleep for these few days, I am so afraid that bad thing happened again, hoping this is only my feeling. I miss home and I miss my family. I should rspend more time with my loved ones there…

It’s so difficult nowadays to have someone that can make me feel truly inspired.

I am needing a figure that can make me do wonderful things I don’t even know I can and (i-don’t-know-what) change me to become a better person each day and guide me in my wrongs, show me the right way.

If that someone does exist, I know he/she must be a really so good one, in all (personality, character, actions, achievements, not only by words like we humans normally are good at) as lacking one thing won’t do.

It doesn’t have to be someone I know in my daily life. The fact is I don’t get it in the people around me, I begin to search another place, yet I still can’t find it.

Sometimes I am wondering the reason behind the searching, ‘Am I looking for someone to depend on?’. Another side, dependency is different with inspiration. I may depend on you although you don’t inspire me. Both are not equivalent each other in many cases. In addition, I don’t like to depend on others.

And then I question, ‘So why do I need someone to inspire me?’

Inspired by ownselves simply means still being at that way which means to say if you want to make a progress, there should be someone in front of you, not your ownselves. You are not becoming a follower but you are trying to be better and better and keep and keep going, arrive and achieve finally bigger than the person in front of you.

Perhaps it is how it works…

You don’t have to go to NY to see the exhibit, enjoy!

(In the morning …)

“Yesterday’s problem is solved already? If not, you copy your database for me, I’ll check it for you. I got time this morning…” (Inside me saying, “I always have time actually… today is just too free…”).

“Oh.. this error is because of the memory leakage issue. You just need to close all and then run again the process interface, begin all over again. We are still investigating how to solve it. There aren’t any wrongs in the program, but in the subregistry.” (I walked out and laughing by heart and wondering, “Was it me talking? In fact, they know more than me…”).

(In the night)

I am so unlucky with so many unlucky stories about the buses and the trains and the EZ Link Card). Hoping tomorrow will be better. I am so hungry after thinking, worrying, and running very much.

Good night!!!

1. Perhaps I eat too many fatty things. I have a high cholesterol!!! (Normal is 200, mine 211). But my sister said it’s a good choloesterol one, not the bad.

2. He was surprised to see my Hepatitis B antibody is so high.

3. I need to drink a lot of water because I complained about being dizzy. Is there any relationship with water?

4. Everyone will feel dizzy everytime he suddenly wakes up, so my case is common. No need to worry.

5. Not to have this kind of test anymore for the next 2 years since I am still young and my result just showed I am very healthy.

Those were all what he said…

Anyway, he forgot me already, the one who pretends to be sick. He asked again my occupation, and so on and so on.

I just finished Heroes.304. Very cool! But watching too long is tiring, I feel my eyes are a bit blur blur now. I have many songs finally in the laptop yet still missing so badly my favourite songs in my lovely PC that’s currently in Ujung Pandang.

The boss is going to have his holiday next week and he is now so busy to have a quality control of all, “I want all the things are the same till you don’t realize I am not around.” And one friend said, “I’ll feel sad if there’s no difference whether I come or not to the office. You don’t?” He is so worried this week, has given many advices, as if he’s going to die tomorrow. As I already know, he takes care of his product as if it were his son. He even sent email to everyone yesterday to announce his leave. Too early, dear!

I have copied some program installers from the office to my external hdd, planning to master it at home. But, we’ll just see which one wins, my laziness or my diligence.

Good night!

by : Dido

I haven’t really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I’m not in love
But it’s not as if I mind
that your heart ain’t exactly breaking

It’s just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I’ve always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what’s happened to that dream
Cos there’s really nothing left here to stop me

It’s just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won’t let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won’t even try
Well how can I say I’m alive

If my life is for rent…

Extremely beautiful, open to the public in the end of October.

Open for me, today. I love the place!!!

(Talking about Istana President)

J : “So, is it worth or not going there? I have been years here, never go there…”

M : “Hmm…. it’s worth lah.. not much to see actually. But first time is always worth hahaha.”

J : “No next time? Haha!”

M : “There is, until I meet the president.”

I just know that we must go in the morning to meet the president. Learn the lesson, will try again.

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(18.30, four persons left in the office, no one but me in my area, suddenly there’s someone standing behind)

M : “Heh?”

T : ‘Never mind. You continue. I will wait for you.”

M : “Huh?”

T : “OT? not going home yet?”

M : “Haha.. I’m going. You want to ask something? Never mind, I can still check it now.”

T : “No, no. I’m not only looking for you when I need you lah.. hahaha. I also concern about you.”

M : “Huahahaha…”

Sometimes they are just……. so cute.

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(Testing period)

W : “I think she is already afraid everytime I call her name.”

M : “Haha no lah.”

J : “You drink coffee? Stressed already?”

M : “Huh? I’m making Milo. Stressed people drink coffee?”

J : “Haha yup. Perhaps in your dream tonight, you will dream of W.”

M : “Cannot be. And I am also not stressed at all.”

How can be stressed when this is the happiest period of working ever?

When will they learn that busy is not equivalent with stressed?

PS : TGIF (Need I Say More?)